i am in denial!
walk towards the ray,
as i do.
and once i am almost there
and just when i think i am through,
life pulled me back.
trapped me in and gnawed!!
felt helpless and lonely...
felt somewhat like me,
alas!! if only i knew,
where the bits and shreds of me are strewn.
if only i could give it all up,
and lead my self to me.
if only i had what it takes,
for me to be me.
and then i gave it all up,
and turned back to leave.
leave for where i come from,
leave for where i believe i belong.
right in the midst of the road called fate,
stood the mechanical desires.
they will not leave,
they will not cease.
trapped me in and gnawed!!