a little withered part of my soul,
barter it for what i need.
my creed, my desires, my you,
conflicts are deep within me.
i know how it is supposed to be,
and i can see myself gettin there.
people talking in me,
i hear them speak,the word's heat.
and then when its gone,
i know i am alone.
is that when you feel,
your soul swaying and crying?
a bunch of some more lies,
a few more confessions.
rid me of these notional pains,
help me plunge through me.
and when we are there,
and my mirage is mine,
i will let go of my lies.
deprive myself of my pretence.
i am goin to be someone else.
someone, not held back on earth.

the vastness of that time,
the endless train of sand.
trapped in that glass retort,
i felt her deliquesce.
she was a ballerina,
she was clad in white.
when she saw the world at dawn,
it felt clean and sane.
delusive were the people.
reticent, as they say.
it was too late by then,
and nothing would be the same.
all she could do was wait,
till the marks on the sand were gone.
and till she closed here eyes again,
repulsively tranquil was the sight.
it was the conclusion,
and it led to litter.
she gave in after twelve years,
she did not fight.
she was my ballerina,
she was clad in white!!

prevalent through my being,
are the desires that will not cease.
and beyond the dark clouds,
opens the sole window to me.
its star no. X213MND.
i am there, with my SELF,
a SELF, obscure to me.
i need the flame,
i delve in its light.
but i am far, and can't be seen.
i am not giving up today,
i will not let it slip this time.
i will not come out of this SELF,
till star no. X213MND is mine.
i will be a luminary then,
i will fade in my own shine.

i am in denial!
walk towards the ray,
as i do.
and once i am almost there
and just when i think i am through,
life pulled me back.
trapped me in and gnawed!!
felt helpless and lonely...
felt somewhat like me,
alas!! if only i knew,
where the bits and shreds of me are strewn.
if only i could give it all up,
and lead my self to me.
if only i had what it takes,
for me to be me.
and then i gave it all up,
and turned back to leave.
leave for where i come from,
leave for where i believe i belong.
right in the midst of the road called fate,
stood the mechanical desires.
they will not leave,
they will not cease.
trapped me in and gnawed!!