Distortions and modifications.

Layers of changes.

Years and some more years.

White and black.

Loved and Sickly.

"A while ago I could sleep. I used to go to bed at 11,11.30,12 and sleep. Now I can't. It is strange really. I mean strange for me because, me-oh! I can sleep for hours. Not one of those lame excuse for sleep when you wake up every 17 minute. Sleeping for hours without a dream. Because I could sleep for hours, doesn't mean that I am lethargic. I walk. Walk all the way from here to somewhere around Ashram Road. I know if I tried I could've even gone till the Station. Maybe I will walk to Gandhinagar someday. Sometimes when I run out of places to walk, I walk around the house.We don't even notice that there are hundreds of things, right in our home that need to be seen,observed. When its really dark and after a while you begin to get the idea that what is placed where, you can walk around in your own house, without being noticed. You can then look at those things.Observe and appreciate. Ridiculous it is, because sometimes I can go hours without getting out of the bed. Not sleeping. Just lay on the bed. It is so comfortable and convenient, that things like "face-scrubs" and "moisturizers" don't really matter. Now, I can't do all of these. I try to ignore it. Sometimes it works, sometimes it makes things worse. Sometimes I feel like going to the verandah or even better-out of the house. But I don't. I wouldn't want to wake others up."

12/3/2005.

I have a choice.

Let's dance in style, lets dance for a while

Heaven can wait we're only watching the skies

Hoping for the best but expecting the worst

Are you going to drop the bomb or not?

Let us die young or let us live forever

We don't have the power but we never say never

Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip

The music's for the sad men

Can you imagine when this race is won

Turn our golden faces into the sun

Praising our leaders we're getting in tune

The music's played by the mad men

Forever young, I want to be forever young

Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever

Forever young, I want to be forever young

Do you really want to live forever? Forever young

Some are like water, some are like the heat

Some are a melody and some are the beat

Sooner or later they all will be gone

Why don't they stay young

It's so hard to get old without a cause

I don't want to perish like a fading horse

Youth's like diamonds in the sun

And diamonds are forever

So many adventures couldn't happen today

So many songs we forgot to play

So many dreams swinging out of the blue

We let them come true

Forever young, I want to be forever young

Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever

Forever young, I want to be forever young

Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever

Forever young, I want to be forever young

Do you really want to live forever?

-Alphaville

I can close my eyes and believe what I want to.
I ignore.
I volunteer to.
If you have words,
make sure you say it out loud.
I ignore.
I choose to.

The mind wanders.
The fingers follow.